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these were then grouped into ,,emergent themes”. In the second stage, patterns
and themes across the ,,.emergent themes” were identified and clustered into
more abstract „master themes” (Smith et al., 2009). Self and identity need to
be evaluated in the context of identity work of recovery; therefore, this study
assesses these two master themes in the context of SC use. The Institutional
Review Board at Eötvös Loränd University approved all study protocols.
4.3. RESULTS
The analysis identified in two master themes in relation to participants’ inter¬
pretations of self and identity perception in the context of SC use: 1. The
impact of SC use experience on self and identity formation, and 2. The trans¬
formed self and the user self.
4.3.1. The Impact of SC Use Experience on Self and Identity Formation
Participants had difficulties interpreting their experiences, because they de¬
scribed these through non-continuous accounts. Due to the consumption of
the drug, they experienced unpredictable effects and they felt unable to con¬
trol it. All of them reported the impact on their self of positive experiences
at the beginning, which diminished and became predominantly negative
experiences later on.
„At first you are fine, you can eat more, you are in a good mood, you see everything
in a positive way... but later it becomes the total opposite.”
»S0, I had some positive experiences, but later on, I felt it had many disadvantages”
»l pooped on the world, I didn't care about anything, I didn’t go anywhere, I wasn't
responsible for anything”
Participants described that the drug transformed and damaged their self. They
felt that they lost control over their selves, and that the drug repressed their
feelings, conscience and personality as it strengthened their egoism and gave
them fake and inflated self-image.
»Ihis makes you weak inside, you manipulate people and they manipulate you.
The bad thing is that it strengthens the feeling not to care about anybody, not to
care about what others think”