Oldal 50 [50]
48 = USING INTERPRETATIVE PHENOMENOLOGICAL ANALYSIS
»At the beginning you can eat more, you are in a good mood... you can see posi¬
tive things. But later it turns into its opposite, I couldn't eat, I was lazy, even if I
had the drug? (Attila)
»l had positive experiences about this, but as time went by, I saw many disadvan¬
tages of it.” (Zsolt)
»l felt I became addicted...I couldnt sleep, I smoked it in vain, because I woke up
in every hour in the night to smoke until morning. When I woke up in the morn¬
ing my first thoughts were about how can I get some more again.” (Levente)
3.3.2. SCs take over peoples lives
The participants reported fast alteration of their experiences from positive to
negative and felt that they had lost control over their behavior as well as their
physical and psychological conditions. Due to these unpredictable effects,
they felt the drug hijacked their lives. The hijacking effect of the drug was
perceived in both interpersonal and intrapersonal contexts.
Interpersonal context: SCs both take away old friend and give new ones
Interviewees described that through using the drug they got involved with a
company (a user group) that gave them a sense of belonging, though relation¬
ships had a purpose; they meant a sure source to obtain the drug.
»l belonged to a group where I didn't want to belong, but I was there, because the
drug was there”. (Zsolt)
Later participants realized that these relationships were worthless, but at the
same time they lost their other relationships (such as family and friends), and
they perceived the drug took them away, due to the turning inward and isola¬
tive effects of SCs.
»sometimes we didn’t think about it, that we can hurt people, who really loved us.
People who raised us and always were there for us.” (Levente)
Interpersonal context: becoming asocial
Social and personal effects of the drug that partici-pants reported included
turning inward and becoming asocial. As this happened against the partici¬
pants’ will, they perceived that the drug hijacked them. In these accounts a