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48 = USING INTERPRETATIVE PHENOMENOLOGICAL ANALYSIS »At the beginning you can eat more, you are in a good mood... you can see positive things. But later it turns into its opposite, I couldn't eat, I was lazy, even if I had the drug? (Attila) »l had positive experiences about this, but as time went by, I saw many disadvantages of it” (Zsolt) »l felt I became addicted...I couldn't sleep, I smoked it in vain, because I woke up in every hour in the night to smoke until morning. When I woke up in the morning my first thoughts were about how can I get some more again.” (Levente) 3.3.2. SCs take over people’s lives The participants reported fast alteration of their experiences from positive to negative and felt that they had lost control over their behavior as well as their physical and psychological conditions. Due to these unpredictable effects, they felt the drug hijacked their lives. The hijacking effect of the drug was perceived in both interpersonal and intrapersonal contexts. Interpersonal context: SCs both take away old friend and give new ones Interviewees described that through using the drug they got involved with a company (a user group) that gave them a sense of belonging, though relationships had a purpose; they meant a sure source to obtain the drug. »l belonged to a group where I didn't want to belong, but I was there, because the drug was there”. (Zsolt) Later participants realized that these relationships were worthless, but at the same time they lost their other relationships (such as family and friends), and they perceived the drug took them away, due to the turning inward and isolative effects of SCs. »sometimes we didn’t think about it, that we can hurt people, who really loved us. People who raised us and always were there for us.” (Levente) Interpersonal context: becoming asocial Social and personal effects of the drug that partici-pants reported included turning inward and becoming asocial. As this happened against the participants’ will, they perceived that the drug hijacked them. In these accounts a
