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60 = USING INTERPRETATIVE PHENOMENOLOGICAL ANALYSIS these were then grouped into ,,emergent themes”. In the second stage, patterns and themes across the ,.emergent themes” were identified and clustered into more abstract ,,master themes” (Smith et al., 2009). Self and identity need to be evaluated in the context of identity work of recovery; therefore, this study assesses these two master themes in the context of SC use. The Institutional Review Board at Eötvös Loránd University approved all study protocols. 4.3. RESULTS The analysis identified in two master themes in relation to participants’ interpretations of self and identity perception in the context of SC use: 1. The impact of SC use experience on self and identity formation, and 2. The transformed self and the user self. 4.3.1. The Impact of SC Use Experience on Self and Identity Formation Participants had difficulties interpreting their experiences, because they described these through non-continuous accounts. Due to the consumption of the drug, they experienced unpredictable effects and they felt unable to control it. All of them reported the impact on their self of positive experiences at the beginning, which diminished and became predominantly negative experiences later on. »At first you are fine, you can eat more, you are in a good mood, you see everything in a positive way... but later it becomes the total opposite.” »90, I had some positive experiences, but later on, I felt it had many disadvantages” »l pooped on the world, I didn't care about anything, I didn’t go anywhere, I wasn't responsible for anything” Participants described that the drug transformed and damaged their self. They felt that they lost control over their selves, and that the drug repressed their feelings, conscience and personality as it strengthened their egoism and gave them fake and inflated self-image. »Ihis makes you weak inside, you manipulate people and they manipulate you. The bad thing is that it strengthens the feeling not to care about anybody, not to care about what others think”
